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| Tuesday, December 29th, 2009 | |
twentysidedtale
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11:28a |
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panic_anxiety
[ audionorth ]
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6:44a |
i hate the wind, i hate the wind...
i woke up a half an hour ago and i've been crying and shaking ever since. i went to bed at around 3 AM playing xbox and woke up at 6:05 AM because of loud wind. normally i'd sleep through wind but i didn't this time. problem is i am HORRIFIED of strong, loud wind and potential for tornadoes. i can barely look at a picture of a tornado without hyperventilating. thing that's fucked up is that we live on long island - we NEVER get tornadoes. i guess that makes me feel like we're overdue for a big one and it's going to hit my house and will be the cause of my death. i really believe i will die because of a tornado someday. either way, the winds are a steady 30ish mph right now and the gusts are around 50mph - the kind that makes the wooshing sound. i turned on lights so i can watch it from outside. all i can see is the silhouette of trees wiggling around against a barely rising sun, kind of taunting me and making my throat thicken and hands shake. i put on the local news and am waiting to see if there is any news on a tornado hazard. you should have seen me 2 summers ago when there was a threat... what do you do when you're having an attack? who do you turn to? do you try to distract yourself for a little while like i am now? edit: looks like it isn't ending until 2AM tomorrow either. looks like i'll be getting zero sleep. Current Mood:  scared |
sydneygothic
[ lillim ]
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9:51p |
Ascension - January 2ndCome keep the new years celebrations going with the first Ascension for 2010! DJs Monochrome and caterwaul plus special guests 9:00pm - 3:00am Cheap cocktails between 6 and 9 Free pool Free Entry! The Sly Fox hotel - 199 Enmore Rd, Enmore |
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darthsanddroids
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10:10a |
Episode 355: Missed It by That Much
http://www.darthsanddroids.net/episodes/0355.html 
If the players have fallen foul of a situation through no fault of their own (say, they had really bad rolls during a combat you expected
them to win, or some other totally uncontrollable circumstance) and end up being captured, then it's fair and sensible to offer them a
relatively easy way out of their predicament. Throw them a lifeline, as it were.
If they take that lifeline and start tying their own nooses with it... well, that's their own fault.
(This is another deleted scene from the movie, by the way, in case you don't recognise it.)
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| Monday, December 28th, 2009 | |
wilwheaton
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12:11p |
From the Vault: maybe you can just enjoy the tour
http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/wwdn/~3/smgnTxQ1GIQ/from-the-vault-maybe-you-can-just-enjoy-the-tour.html While looking for something entirely-unrelated, I came across this old post from 2006. I read the entire post that it's excerpted from on Radio Free Burrito 17, but this part made me smile, so it gets its own spot right here on my bloggy-blog-blog: Though I've been there for several auditions, I haven't been on the Universal Studio Tour since A-Team and Knight Rider were in prime time.
I can mark that particular period of time with this degree of certainty, because I clearly recall talking with KITT, and wanting to ask it if it ever raced the A-Team van around the back lot, but actually asking something stupid about how fast it could go.
I also recall taking a scratch off game with me on the tour tram, where we were supposed to look for A-Team characters in various places, and scratch off the appropriate image on the map, with the promise of a prize for kids who turned in correctly completed games. I can't remember all of them, but Mr. T -- well, a model of Mr. T's head, anyway -- was in this out of control train that was supposed to come within inches of crashing into the tram, and I was so busy trying to figure out how they did it, I forgot to scratch him off . . . until the tour guide reminded all us kids to scratch off that circle on our map.
"That's stupid," I told my mom, "if they're just going to tell everyone where the A-Team is, why should we even look?"
"Maybe you can just enjoy the tour," she said. 2006 was a fantastic year for me as a writer. When I go through the 2005-2006 archives, I see a lot of creative writing and narrative non-fiction that I recall having a lot of fun writing, which remains a lot of fun for me to read today. I'm not entirely sure why that is, but I suspect a lot of it has to do with how much I was allowing myself to simply enjoy the tour.  |
shortpacked
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11:16p |
And now sleepytime maybe? So tired. So dark!
Shortpacked!: Or maybe it was Superbook. Hey, folks! Blog's a little late and emaciated, as I've been helping my buddy Graham move all evening. I do have a new DCUC Hawkgirl I amazingly found yesterday, but I haven't even had a chance to open her. But that's something to talk about later, at least. Later! |
corvine
[ kayucian ]
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7:32p |
What do Van Gogh, Shakespeare, the Hopi and Kayukon People, Mark Twain, and the rock band The Counting Crows have in common? They all draw inspiration from some of our most common, but least understood birds: the crow and the raven. Dr. John Marzluff, Professor of Wildlife Science at the University of Washington, leads us on an investigation of the inspiration of ravens on people and our effects on these adaptable birds.
Dedication Ceremony for the UAS Raven Sculpture
With remarks from UAS Chancellor John Pugh, Artwork & Artist Selection Committee member Alice Tersteeg, Artist & UAS Alumna Lisa Rickey, and UAS Alumni & Friends Treasurer Jerry Burnett.
Recorded September 12, 2008
Sponsored by: University of Alaska Southeast
Produced by: UAS Video Production Services
© 2008 University of Alaska Southeast
Running Time: 1 hour, 46 minutes |
panic_anxiety
[ vivalameghan ]
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10:07p |
traumatic event... (don't know how to use cuts...so here's a warning) i have insane car anxiety: i never trust the person driving, i cringe on every turn, and i'm always looking in all directions. i don't drive personally, and don't think i ever will. on christmas eve, my boyfriend and i were driving down a two lane highway northbound when out of nowhere a car came on the side of us (in the slow lane, we were in the fast lane) going around 120 mph, cut us off in the fast lane, then proceeded to swerve back in the slow lane and launch off a snowbank/guardrail, fly 250 feet into woods, hit two trees, and land upside down. we waited for the police, filled out incident reports and such, all because we were the only witnesses and the driver passed away. this caused EXTREME anxiety for me, and since then, i have not been able to really sleep. i've been on the verge of tears about everything, and i think this has to do with that and also due to the fact that my bleeding disorder has made it's appearance again and i've been sick for 6 weeks. i'm home on break and have no friends here, and my only friends at school are travelling abroad next semester, so all i have right now is my boyfriend. but he also leads a very busy lifestyele, so i'm basically at home all day just having a pity party and thinking about what happened. i'm also gaining weight and i hate myself for it. i don't know where to go and how to get over what i saw. and i also don't know how to feel better about my life. granted, watching that woman die has truly saved me from suicide. i just still am feeling very hopeless and very depressed. |
| Tuesday, December 29th, 2009 |
sydneysiders
[ glittalogik ]
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12:27p |
Tradie in Marrickville area
Hey guys, a DIY project ended up a bit over my head so I need someone to replaster my bathroom ceiling and possibly fix some other stuff while they're here. Kinda urgent =( Can anyone recommend someone? |
| Monday, December 28th, 2009 | |
wilwheaton
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10:02a |
a couple of book-related things
http://wilwheaton.typepad.com/wwdnbackup/2009/12/a-couple-of-bookrelated-things.html Memories of the Future got a nice write up in the Toledo Free Press:
There’s one thing that Wil Wheaton wants to make very clear: “Memories of the Future” is not, repeat, NOT a “tell-all” book about his time working on “Star Trek: The Next Generation.” “It was extraordinarily important to me that this was not some kind of stupid, gossipy book,” Wheaton said. “I despise that kind of thing. I just hate it. It’s the reality television of literature, and I absolutely cannot stand it.” Indeed, “Memories of the Future” is instead a funny review of, and a loving tribute to, the first season of “Next Generation,” which began its television run in 1987.
I also saw that Happiest Days of Our Lives was used as an example of one of those new-fangled paper-style books:
Today I picked up a paper book to read just for fun — The Happiest Days of Our Lives by Wil Wheaton. Long-time (since this spring!) Kindle user that I am, I immediately noticed the dashing use of color on its front cover, but when I opened it, I was disappointed that I couldn’t scale the font size down from the default. It seems that paper books have only one font option — what are all these Kindle forum posters complaining about with its six sizes of a single font? On the very first page, I encountered a word I wasn’t familiar with (Namaste). I thought I knew what it meant from the context clues, and even had the thought that on the Kindle, I could just highlight it and confirm my guess. But my paper dictionary was in the basement, so I didn’t bother looking it up until I wrote this post. (My hunch was reasonably correct.) Interface-wise, the paper book is solid, and crashes, lockups, or other malfunctions are rare. I have, however, noted severe stability problems when attempting to read outdoors, especially when it’s windy (which, since I live in Kansas, is pretty much always). Pages start turning themselves, even without me making the “turn page” gesture. Sometimes the book will even lose its memory of my last page read. This is rather annoying, and might even involve a lengthy search for a suitable temporary replacement bookmark. Also, I haven’t tried it, but I suspect that the trick of putting a Kindle in a ziplock bag to read at the beach or in the tub without risk of getting it wet would be impractical with a paper book.
That entire post is really funny and clever, and I think you should read the whole thing. Go ahead, I'll wait. See? Wasn't it funny? I like clever writing that is funny. Speaking of The Happiest Days Of Our Lives, I know a non-zero number of people have been waiting very patiently for the special edition to be released by Subterranean Press. I wanted to explain, again, why it's been a year: After the book was announced, I spent almost two months digging through published and unpublished material for the expanded parts of the book, then I spent another month or so rewriting and polishing the stuff that made the cut. After that, I wrote additional introductions and notes to go with each chapter. That was the first delay (and, honestly, I thought it was entirely reasonable, since the book was announced as a pre-order) The biggest delay, and the first serious problem, though, was a software compatibility issue between me and the copy editor. OpenOffice and Word don't track notes the same way, but neither of us knew this until we'd both spent a lot of time working in our respective suites, completely oblivious to the work of the other. Finally, we realized what was wrong, and had to go all the way back to the beginning of the copy editing process the old way, printing the entire manuscript out on paper and making notes in the margins. It had a certain nostalgic value, but it took forever to get all that shit straightened out. So that process, which should have taken a couple weeks, took close to three months. Then, once we got that all squared away, I had to get a bunch of pictures together, caption them, fact-check the captions with my parents and siblings, then get all that stuff to Subterranean Press. I also held up this part of the process for a couple more weeks while I looked for even more unpublished pictures that neither me nor my mom could find. Finally, I asked my son Ryan (who is a creative writing student) if he wanted to write an afterword. He said he would, but it would take some time because he's in college and has his own responsibilities. I was willing to wait, because I thought it would be awesome to have his contribution to in the book, and I figured at this point (August) another couple weeks didn't make that big a difference. It ended up taking about 6 or 8 weeks, but I think it will ultimately be worth the delay (please note that I am not an objective source of information in this regard.) Finally, the manuscript was turned in, the pictures were approved, the layout was all set ... and then the signature pages arrived. I had to sign something like 2500 pages, and it was important to me that each one looked like it was the only one I'd signed. I could have blown through it, of course, and gotten it done in a couple of days, but that would have guaranteed disappointment to everyone who bought the book and waited almost a year to get it. So I limited myself to between 50 and 75 pages at a "session," and it took several weeks to work my way through them all. Oh, also, keep in mind that during all of these months, I was working on other projects, including several television shows that took me away from the Happiest Days project for weeks at a time. So all of those delays stacked up on top of each other, until everything was finally finished about six or eight weeks ago. I realize that this is a very long time to wait for something, and I also realize that I've probably killed any chance of doing other special editions with Subterranean Press because this one took so long, but I sincerely believe that it will be worth the wait, because I've seen it, and it's something very special. |
orderofthestick
[ whouseknecht ]
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1:54p |
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oots_gitp
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6:48p |
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panic_anxiety
[ popstarhil ]
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11:42a |
hello again.
I've just begun experiencing panic attacks for less than a week now and I really need to vent. It's going to be a long one so... ( Read more... )Well, I just wanted to let it all out because it seems I can't explain it to anyone without them thinking I'm a nut. Current Mood:  uncomfortable |
wednes
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zoethe
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11:58a |
I'll just stop being sick and be awesome
2009 is finally creeping out the door, a year that I'm glad to show out. I'm holding my breath, waiting for its last sting - I'll not make Gandalf's mistake and turn my back on the treacherous beast before it's completely out of range. But even while holding a defensive posture against the end of 2009, I find myself contemplating 2010. I just read that the average lifespan of a US citizen has reached 78. That number resonated with me. You see, I will turn 52 this year. 78 divided by 3 is 26 - half of 52. I am therefore on the threshold of the final third of my life. Now, I could approach this with anxiety about death. But instead I am embracing this as the payoff for the years I've invested in becoming myself. Now it's about payoff. I am stepping into the third act of my life with bravado and glee. Like Auntie Mame said, "Life's a banquet and most poor suckers are starving to death." Ive spent far too much time focusing on the tough things in life. My life is filled with grace and wonder, and I'm goinng to embrace that. So 2010 is going to be My Year of Living Graciously. To me, gracious living is not about some kind of Martha Stewart perfection. It's about embracing the grace in day-to-day living. It's about appreciating my friends and loved ones. It's about making good decisions for the use of my time. It's about beauty and art and respecting and appreciating the senses. This is less Martha Stewart and more Anthony Bourdain. Less Julie and Julia and more Siddhartha. I will fail some days. I'll get sick or tired or miserable for one reason or other. That's okay. I will record the failures as well as the successes. At the end of the year, I'm hopeful that I will have some fascinating insights on life. I have started a WordPress journal specifically for this project, http://livinggraciously.wordpress.com/. I will be putting my entries here as well, but quotations or links of interest will be there. My only New Year's Resolution? Learn to juggle. The rest of it is simply living better. |
marvel_universe
[ evilgrins ]
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8:20a |
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cappadocius
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8:57a |
Hey, wow.
It really has been two weeks since my last entry. In that time, I went home for Christmas to see my familias, and a pleasant time was had by all. I got a Wii and some DVDs, and some music - made out pretty good on the crass consumerism front. Reminded on both flights how much the airline industry seems hellbent on driving away all of their business - the TSA is enthusiastically helping. Drove an average of 75-80 MPH to get home and see my kitty, "abandoned" for a week (I had a friend stopping by to keep an eye on her) - when I got home, and for most of the Sunday after, she did not want to not be touching me, and when she wasn't, I was able to hear her purr from across the room. Bit of a good feeling to be loved as much as a cat can love. Bit light in the wallet at the end of the year, which is a minor concern. Nothing life-threatening or debt cataclysming, but I have to watch my spending this week. Disappointed that we don't get NYE off, just NYD. Planning to gear up to run Rogue Trader in 2010 - my resolution is to run it for a full year, dammit. Realized I'm eyeballing most of the women that have even one minor element of my attractiveness signalers that I pass in my peregrinations - worrisome, to say the least. I'm not even remotely equipped for a relationship, and while many folks sing the praises of casual dating/relations, I'm not one of them. Will try to keep up more with entries of a diary nature as well as rants and gaming crap. This LJ is the longest I've ever kept a journal/diary and I find it nice. |
theferrett
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10:57a |
Journal Upkeeping: What I Don't Write
I had a friend of mine who expressed concern about talking with me, lest her personal issues end up in my journal. That's a reasonable concern, because I do give the illusion that I share everything in this journal. (I don't, but I share more than many people do.) So let me list the things that I don't talk about in this journal: I don't write about ongoing issues. I do often discuss the problems Gini and I have had in our relationship - but you'll note that those posts are on fights we had several years ago, and are invariably about problems we've solved. But if it's an argument we're having now, I don't talk about it. There's no sense dragging people on LJ into a fight that neither of us have finished negotiating, for reasons outlined here (in Rule #4). Any sort of open debate does not get aired in public until it's absolutely closed, and Gini and I have come to the same conclusion about whatever it was that was bothering us. (Which is why I run all those posts by Gini first - she has veto power.) Likewise, I don't discuss arguments I'm having with my friends. Being polyamorous, I've gone through three breakups in the time since I've had this journal - and none of that's ever made it to the page. I don't name names, I don't discuss specifics, I don't accuse. Breakups are painful enough without having to endure excoriations from strangers in someone's journal. Until it's dead and trapped in amber, I don't write about it.* I don't write about ongoing issues. I'm putting this as a separate bulletin point because it doesn't apply to just Gini: it applies to all my friends and their issues. Now, I can see where it seems that I ignore this rule, because I do write about things my friends are going through. Often, though, those posts are just generic advice I've given to people that's not tied to anything in their lives. But if I know they're going through a trauma that they wouldn't want debated in public, and the entry is on something where there's no question that it's them, I'll wait until it's something that's no longer bothering them. And then I'll change the details of their information. And, more often than not, turn it into an identical incident that I've gone through. (And if it never really ends, then I don't write about it at all. An entry isn't worth upsetting a friend.) I've had friends read entries and not realize it was inspired by them three months ago. That's my goal. Problem is, I have a lot of friends - and considering I often write about universal topics, it's almost guaranteed that my writing on someone's breakup two months back is going to be very similar to someone's breakup today. But there's not much I can do about that; all I can say is that it's not you. I don't talk about anything that someone's specifically asked me not to talk about. If someone doesn't want to be talked about on my LJ, I won't. It's not that big a deal. If I know they're Internet-shy, I'll generally leave them off as well. This is my catch-all category. (This is, I should add, not a letter of the law thing; I don't give universal veto power to anyone who says, "It hurts me when you talk about trees." With a large enough audience, almost every post is guaranteed to hit someone's button. But if it's personal and related to them, I'll usually avoid the topic.) I don't talk about my children. I occasionally tell a funny story about them, or regurgitate some advice I've given, but their lives are their own. The things they go through don't make it here, and shouldn't. I don't talk about work. Fortunately, I do actually enjoy my job, but on the days that I don't I keep my lips zipped. This is simple common sense. I don't talk about anything that, to my judgment, would worsen the world. Which is not to say that I don't err in this occasionally, or make judgments that you'd disagree with as to what makes the world better... but in general, I want my LJ to be a positive force. So I try to avoid writing about things that are just complaining, and if I rant I try to have some underlying point. I want to write about topics that inspire people, not drag them down. And that's it, I think. I reserve the right to add more things as time goes on. And I'll probably restructure my userinfo page to reference this. * - I might write about my emotional state caused by the breakup, as in "I'm feeling really lonely and sad today and must listen to The Shins a million times," but that's a different thing. |
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twentysidedtale
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yendi
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8:52a |
Back, but still mostly offline
We're back in Boston, having survived vacations with two branches of the family, as well as Amtrak TrainFail. Still mostly on LJ hiatus until tomorrow, though, as I'm using today to recover and get stuff done. Hope everyone had a lovely $Winterholiday. |
| Tuesday, December 29th, 2009 |
sydneysiders
[ potonica ]
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12:41a |
Hello can anyone recommend a good dentist in the Ryde area? My tooth is killing me and I am hoping to find someone that might be open. Thanks and happy new year |
| Monday, December 28th, 2009 |
panic_anxiety
[ spareblessing ]
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1:13p |
ok
ok so i ended it with my boyfriend. and i thought things would be bad, but they are good instead, im happy, and ive made it clear to him that unless he cant work with me and prove how much i mean to him then that is it for us and we need to forget about it and move on. i think it gave him the scare he needed to be honest, because now i feel in control of the whole situation for once, and i kinda like it. however anxiety has been an ultimate nightmare these past couple of days, ive been throwing up in the middle of the night, you know the horrible kinds where theres nothing in your stomach so it cramps and makes you feel ill the whole day. my chest has also had the constant feeling that it is being squeezed and its driving me nuts. Current Mood:  tired |
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| Sunday, December 27th, 2009 |
staringiscaring
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11:59p |
Porphyria's Lover (Chapter 15, Willow/Angel, explicit violence and sexual situations)
Title: Porphyria's Lover Author: Sami Disclaimer: Last time I checked I was neither Joss Whedon or anyone else who owned Buffy. Spoilers: Mid season two before 'Passion' and all the flashbacks. Summary: Angelus kidnaps Willow and Sunnydale will never be the same as the Scooby Gang goes up against the new Order of Aurelius. WIP. Multiple pairings, explicit violence, sexual situations, dubious consent, original characters, and character death. Notes: This is my first W/Aus fic so feedback would be fantastic, favorable or otherwise. The title comes from a poem by Robert Browning of the same name. I am changing the format of the fic and it is now consolidated into one big chapter with only the newest section added as a different chapter. I am re-editing old chapters so there will be little changes throughout the story. I want to thank all the people who have reviewed my story and gave such great feedback like Mysticwolf1, Cesci, Voldemortfollower, Malfoy-Lover555, and Blood Red Kisses. Also, thank you, Lisa Kelley, for betaing the first few chapters. ( Read more... ) |
staringiscaring
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11:56p |
Porphyria's Lover (Chapter 13-14, Willow/Angel, explicit violence and sexual situations)
Title: Porphyria's Lover Author: Sami Disclaimer: Last time I checked I was neither Joss Whedon or anyone else who owned Buffy. Spoilers: Mid season two before 'Passion' and all the flashbacks. Summary: Angelus kidnaps Willow and Sunnydale will never be the same as the Scooby Gang goes up against the new Order of Aurelius. WIP. Multiple pairings, explicit violence, sexual situations, dubious consent, original characters, and character death. Notes: This is my first W/Aus fic so feedback would be fantastic, favorable or otherwise. The title comes from a poem by Robert Browning of the same name. I am changing the format of the fic and it is now consolidated into one big chapter with only the newest section added as a different chapter. I am re-editing old chapters so there will be little changes throughout the story. I want to thank all the people who have reviewed my story and gave such great feedback like Mysticwolf1, Cesci, Voldemortfollower, Malfoy-Lover555, and Blood Red Kisses. Also, thank you, Lisa Kelley, for betaing the first few chapters. ( Read more... ) |
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